FUCK APA! Seriously...they can go fuck right off. I am so sick of people having a problem with the word "retarded". Can we grow up? This is not high school! Retarded means slowed and if you get offended by it, then don't read my posts. Yes, kids say it out of proper context, but those of us who do use it in proper context are being nailed to the cross over it because you can't seem to make out the difference. Maybe you're the one that's Mentally Challenged or one of the several other words that is now used to reference mental slowness.
Retarded was in our dictionaries way before mentally retarded was ever used as a medical diagnosis, so please grow up.
Yes, I got in trouble for saying my mom is "Diabetic Retarded" however my mom will even tell her patients that she is diabetic retarded due to the fact that she doesn't handle diabetes, her partner at their clinic does. She couldn't even help me with mine because she is not used to handling it, yet she is a doctor.
I wish people would learn to respect others opinions and others beliefs.
I have been called mentally retarded myself. My 2nd grade teach told my mother I was mentally retarded because I didn't know how to read like the other 2nd graders. It never occured to that teacher that when I transferred from the previous school, we were still working on learning how to read and spell at the same time in order to associate it with the right words. Also I have ADHD...so I also sit on a very different side of the fence than any of you. I have a learning disorder as well as mental illnesses such as OCD, paranoid personality disorder and a few other things. I also have friends who are mentally slow and they say the word retarded more than anyone else I know and we're talking definitely out of proper context. Are you going to nail them to the cross as well??
The whole mentally retarded thing comes from on the IQ tests. It used to say idiot, moron and so on and yet now those are okay terms to use. APA members use them every day on APA, but no one says anything to them.
Most of the words people think are offensive stem from a diagnostic or medical meaning. We all need to build a big ass bridge and get the fuck over it.

So I have been working alot and doing alot of school things!

Currently at work we are having problems with people not doing what they're supposed to be doing or just being bad at being waitresses and bartenders. One girl, the head bartender...she needed to make a frozen margarita. So she mixed the drink, but instead of adding ice and putting it in the blender...she just put it in the fridge..And she has years, I mean YEARS of bartending experience....so the boss said if she keeps wasting liquor she will get her hours cut yet again!

With school...we got Pre-med buddies and I have a paper I'm working on as well as tests coming up.

DH made tape!!! I'm soo excited!! That means everything will be paid off and we can remodel our house and so on!! Yay!!

There really is more than that, but I need to get my ass to bed!!

Mike came down to spend the day with me. We went to work and I complained! I haven't gotten my pay check yet....everyone else got paid except me because there was a problem with the E-mail or fax so my boss gave me $20 to hold me over until tomorrow...I need my paycheck so I can send my friend a very important package!! And it costs more than $20 for what I'm sending her.
SO before that Mike and I went to eat at work and this nice guy, he's a alcoholic but he goes out of his way to be nice to people and he's always at the bar at work, he is leaving for Redding, CA and since he won't be around to come to our wedding...he bought Mike and I lunch! I gave him a hug and we both thanked him. The waitress working, she's super nice, so I told her we would be happy to give her a ride home because she doesn't have a car and she's so nice! She might be doing hair for the wedding too..I need to talk to her about that...so my boss said he would give me some money when we went to pick up my coworker. So we went to my dorm and it started raining...I jumped out of the truck and before I was out of the way I slammed the truck door into my knee...I was in soo much pain I wobbled back to the truck and Mike went in to the dorm building to get my ID. So then we went back to where I worked and waited for my co worker to get off work. The nice alcoholic guy was talking to a lady he befriended. He was paying for all of his stuff and my coworker had his ticket...he had wrote the wrong amount as a tip and she told him that he did. He got upset and started pounding on the bar saying he didn't want that as her tip and she was trying to screw him over...I saw it, he wrote it and just didn't realize where he was writing and we got it all taken care of. He gave her a $200 tip earlier that day, so that's why he was upset...but he was drunk..so that's also why he wasn't paying attention.
So we waited for her and then the other girl came on and we took my coworker home and talked about it and all. She felt better by the time we dropped her off. I told her things will get better...just have a little faith...
SO then Mike and I went looking at wedding stuff and we went to the mall and the Toys R Us and a few other places, then he took me to Chinese. We talked about some wedding stuff and last but not least we went to a store to price some stuff for our wedding. After that we went back to my dorm...we cuddled and did our thing and it was getting late so he had to go back home to feed the dogs. So here I am typing this.
The only other big happening of this week is that I have a wedding planner. She is expensive, but awesome and so worth it. She told me her job is to make everything flow on that day and take care of anything that might happen...my wedding will be detailed minute by minute! She has rentals I want and Mike agrees we need to hire her...so we can just show up!

I have been super busy and I really forgot to post anything. Right now I'm studying my butt off for Microbiology. I have a test tomorrow. I think I'll do well, but we will see.
I did update our new wedding website.
I can edit whatever I want on it and I think it looks better!! Mike did get his clearence for work and I got into the Pre-Med Club at school!! Now if I can make the Pre-Med Internship...I guess that's all for now. I need to get some sleep!

So it's been a traumatizing time today. I didn't get any sleep last night due to my blood sugar dropping. I got low blood sugar 3 times last night, meaning I had no sleep. I went to work in the morning. I was late, but it was okay. I got to go home early. I was on my way back home and I was at a stop sign. I pulled up a little more so I could see better because I was turning right. And then BAM!!! The guy behind me had floored it...he wasn't from the US...No damage was done to either vehicle, so I said screw it, I just wanted to get home. However I did go to a couple stores that were on the way home. I know I have whiplash so I took some tylenol. SO I went to sleep and woke up at 5pm to go eat. I had until 6pm to eat so I was procrastinating. At 5:20 my boss calls me telling me I need to come in because someone didn't show up. I am still not feeling that great and now I'm nauseated. I go to work and I only wanted some diet Dr. Pepper which actually made me feel better. It was a waste of time for me to come in because it was slow. I made a whole $20 it was that slow. The waiter Ben, who I don't care for, was trying to tell me he always makes atleast $80. I know he's lying because I saw his check out sheet that says how much he made in tips. So I stopped by Wendy's to get something to eat. I still feel sick, but I know I have to eat. So now its time for sleep!

Today was an okay day. I woke up early, went to class and we were studying for our Algebra test on Monday. Then I went and ate lunch and I took a much needed nap before having to go to work. I got up at 4:10pm and I got ready for work and went out the door. When I got to work I was bummed to see...Ben there. Ben and I do not get along because he's a jerk. He wants to be in charge and he's not. So he didn't say a word to me and he was let go early so then the night was good. We got busy and I made some good money. I did get a little overwhelmed, but it was because it was chaotic due to people not being on the ball and getting things going. So it eventually slowed down and things slowly came to closing time.
There was a guy sitting at the bar drinking a beer. The head bartender told me to go talk to him. So I did. He gave me a $20, because he had been watching me and knew I was working hard and he though I deserved it. I thanked him and I told him that really made my night, because it did. I had alot I needed to go buy tonight, and he made it so I could go buy my test strips for my glucometer. So it was officially closing time and I got to go home before the head bartender. I am an assistant bartender and I do waitress and tonight I was waitressing. We do tip out the bartender and she went out of her way to clean my tables and set them up plus she got all the drinks I needed and when I had a problem with a bottle of wine and had to get other drinks for a different table, she went over and poured the wine for my table and everything. So I tipped her more than the other girls did because she really helped me alot! The boss told me that if it got busy tomorrow night that he would call me in to bartend so the head bartender (who is also the assistant manager) could take over the floor. So it was a good night!
So I went to wal-mart and I got some much needed stuff like shampoo and conditioner, mouthwash, and they had a yoga ball on sale so I bought that too. I also put gas in my car because in the morning I have to go take care of a lady from 9:30am til 1pm. So after I got done in wal-mart I called my friend Courtney. She had been texting me and it worried me. She was upset over someone who she thought was her friend, but they were just using her.
Her situation is she works at a big car dealership in AZ and she works with this girl. The girl is 18, just married and Courtney is pretty sure this girl is cheating on her husband. The girl is cheating on her husband with a guy that works at the dealership. This guy is very seedy and sleazy and scary to Courtney. Anyways, the female coworker keeps asking Courtney to cover for her so she can hang out with this guy. Courtney doesn't want to do it anymore and told me that the girl is supposed to be moving to Germany to be with her husband in a month. I told Courtney to tell her that she is not comfortable with her situation and that she just wants to keep things professional and that she is not going to cover for her anymore. This guy the female coworker is seeing called Courtney a whore and such because Courtney and the female coworker went out for drinks and he was jealous. Also Courtney has a boyfriend and this guy made the assumption that Courtney's boyfriend is trying to date the female coworker. It's just a mess....so I told Courtney she knows what she has to do and she needs to do it. The female coworker and the guy are not her problem and she needs to look at it as that way. So Courtney is going to say something on Monday. And we talked about the wedding and the plans for flowers and center pieces and such and it got late and we ended our conversation...
Now I'm just finishing up laundry and going to bed soon...

I got up early and took a shower before my Theology class. I slathered on my progesterone cream and I got to class and was a little excited to know we were watching a video. However it took our instructor forever to figure out how to make the DVD work because this classroom didn't have a DVD player, so we watched it on the computer using the LCD projector. I was helping him with the speakers and such, however before hand people were talking very loudly and one girl started singing.....Now, I don't go to church here in Kansas where I am at, for good reason. I went to the 7th Day Adventist private school and my teacher told my mom I was mentally retarded. She actually told her I needed to go to a school that had Special Education. My mom is a pediatrician and she knew the teacher didn't know what she was talking about. Needless to say I went to a different school 2 weeks after that happened (I went to live with my grandparents so I could get extra help learning to read and with my ADHD) and when I went back to visit it was during a school day and they were reading out of their books. The teacher asked me to read and I was able to read it all without any trouble and finish the chapter. The other students in the 2nd grade that she was teaching were stills struggling. So I just stay away from church here, so anyways this girl was singing these church songs. I think gospel is beautiful, but I didn't care for her singing and she just wouldn't stop. It upset me a little because maybe it was too early for my brain to process it, but she really should be more respectful. So we got everything going and watched the video. And this morning I couldn't find one of my FiberOne bars so I grabbed a soda which had caffeine in it. I gave myself a shot of insulin (35 unites since there was 70 carbs in the whole bottle). So I went to World Civilizations after Theology. We always have fun because our teacher is just a blast! I really enjoy her class! And we talked about ancient India and Budda and all that good stuff. She decided to let us go early so we could work on our papers. It was around then I started to feel like my blood sugar is low. I don't mean a little low...I mean it went from being a little low to extremely low. So I hauled ass to the cafeteria since it was lunch time. I got a big salad, a sandwich, fries, and a cappuccino...and my blood sugar was still low. I decided to get some ice cream and I went back to my dorm and I text DH. He is excited because the last time I was PG, my blood sugar would get crazy low! So I decided I would take a nap..eat supper, finish my paper for history, do my algebra homework for Monday, do the chapters for next week's Microbiology and print off study guides for the tests next week. I am trying to get things done ahead of time so I don't have to worry about them.

About Me

I'm 24 years old. I am a pre-med and nursing student at a private Catholic college in Kansas. I work as a bartender and I also work as a caregiver. I have been a CNA for 5 years. I have PCOS, type 2 diabetes, hypertension, high cholesterol, tendinitis, congenital nystagmus (only person in the US to have the surgery and come out with 20/20 vision), adult ADHD, OCD, paranoid personality disorder, GERD, cystic acne, severe dry skin, eczema, & psoriasis. I am a survivor of Idiopathic Thrombocytopenic Purpura (it can lead to Leukemia). I am part Jewish and am proud of that. My family is Christian, but they do practice alot of the Jewish ways. I always try to speak my mind and I don't sugar coat things. I have no hate towards anyone, but very few people who cross me will ever earn forgiveness from me. God knows this is something I struggle with everyday. I will go out of my way to help people, even if I don't like them, because that's how I was raised and taught. I am common law married to the love my my life, Mike (27) until we get married legally, which will be here in a month or so. We are planning a bigger wedding in a year. We are very Southern in our ways as in we believe in Southern hospitality and even if we don't like people to atleast be cordial because we both come from Southern families. We are TTCing our first and only child. We have been TTCing since June 27th 2009. We are using Kimmie's Lunar Fertility Chart. We got PG August 6th. The same day we got a positive pregnancy test I started miscarrying. My doctor told me it was not a chemical pregnancy.